"I'm Not Alright"

Came across this song by Sanctus Real today... beautiful song, IMO. But the meaning of the lyrics is the best part. It is my belief that we must come broken and emptied at the feet of Christ before we can truly know the full sweetness of a relationship with Him. If there are things in our life--be they good things, bad things, or merely "defense mechanisms"--that we can cling to to make ourselves feel "alright", we will miss out on the beauty of humility and utter emptiness / brokenness before Christ. Let us fall broken and defenseless before the mercy seat--it's there that the healing begins (see 10th Avenue North's "Healing Begins" ). God doesn't want us to be "tough for Christ"... He wants us to stand utterly vulnerable before Him and admit our utter weakness and let Him fill us with His strength so that we can be useful tools in His hand.

Ok. Now to the song. X) I personally prefer the WOW 2011 remix version (which is what I heard on an album preview), but this is the only one readily available. (if you wanna hear the Wow 2011 version, I recommend New Release Tuesday's album preview... the song starts around 13:50)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2LCvCBaqVg

If weakness is a wound
That no one wants to speak of
Then "cool" is just how far we have to fall

I am not immune
I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall

Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth, I need to confess

I'm not all right
I'm broken inside
And all I go through
It leads me to you

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone

And when I'm open wide
With nothing left to cling to
Only you are there to lead me on

Honestly, I'm not that strong

And I move closer to you

I'm not all right...that's why I need you